happy???ya really happy, cos a group of friends treat me and nice meal with a nice cakes, and my my head full with egg smell…happy??ya cos receive many friends’ greetings…But why i still cried when listem to songs?? i really hope that after 12am u r the first person who greeted me…but when i receive ur msg call me to call u after 12.30pm cos u r cleaning room,i seem like drop from heaven to the hell…all days long i’m still wating for ur msg o ur call.but finally u call me and say tat u didi that because u angry me..but if u wan anyry pls don choose my birthday la…and finally u said tat word to me too..i very happy especially “those 3 words”. Although im 22 edi,but my mind still 15, u said tat u oni will say those words once,but i really hope everyday u can say to me…..

bi…i love u…

This morning dad told me that finally grandmom was pass away in the hospital.But i don’t feel sad at all. Is it called “cold”? i don’t feeel so, but what i scared is how should my mom do later? cos i don’t hope that she should go for pray and visit.And this kind of thing should be left to my dad’s other wife and sons. But my mom said this is the last chance for us to communicate with my dad’s side people.After that no more. cos we really don’t want to have any contact with them.And i feel they are very very…How come their mom can throw here and there?But after i finished the movie of “钱不够用2“. They are seem the actors inside the movie.But ok la cos some of them still very good to their mom.But this is their business. But what i know is i’m not “梁家人“since long times ago.

The room i applied was approved. and no need to face to somebody that i don wan to see…I should not apply the same room as him last time, wan to correct it but lazy. really regret for the lazy. if hardworking that time, i not need to face that person anymore. know to complain me, but i never do that, just b patient. seem like today i went to moved my cupboard and the table of me last time cos i need to return it to the house beside me, cos last time i took their table n cupboard as my own. then he said wanna do a report, i just called him to do it la, i welcome it anytimes. he wanna the whole room then i just give him la lazy to fight wit tis kind of ppl. only know to complain bout me, but how bout him? he feel he is good? wat the things tat he complain me oso held on him. oni i’m lazy to fight wit him.now i hope next sem the office arrange he stay wit the junior then i happy liao haha..

finally,one of the program in my hand finished, then after tomorrow, one more event will be finished too.
Really disappointed on the program last day, named "Malam Integrasi Labuan", really shame to join in this event, this is because of a none knowledgeable and unexperienced leader. But never mind because can finished it earlier.
But then next week has one more event that is have to be the anak angkat at the other people house, but have to start from Thursday to Sunday, i hope to join ,but i wish can study too,because  the mid sem exam coming soon. really don know which i have to choose…

this sem really make me headache and the head almost want to bomb up…
the event de thing, the study,the relationship and also the roommate…
sometime really lazy to fight with him cos really don have any mood n no time to fight wit him.oni can be patient and see wat will happened next, be patient better than a actuation .The event pula follow a "bad" leader, can said as not a responsible  leader cos don see any work on him actually.only will make us(his lower) died.
the programs make me cant study well in my study and now only what i hope is the event can end faster,then i can concentrate on my study liao…

narrowness

Suddenly feel myself start to be old…and oso feel so lonely…Why i changed into this? may be i become older and older as i don know it…Last time like to stay in kl b’cos can get  what i want, n can enjoy my life n…But what i really wan?i really don know.. money?lover?frens?o wat? when go clubbing, saw many new people n young boys there. but when think carefully, i am 21. Still remember the time when i came in into this circle n become high profile is when i 17. Already 4 years, but wat i get? lover?no… money? oso no…frens? lost… then now i really know wat my mom talked to me last time…Our future and siblings are the important. Although everything will lost, but they won’t…

the exam times really make me tired and tension…
but after the exam will be more relax b’cos have a long long holidays…but after the holidays cannot see the 3rd year senior already,b’cos they are graduated.then when would i seem like them can graduated so fast…i also hope to graduated,but still have to wait for 2 more years,very hard to pass over this 2 years.
why we have to sit for the exam,really make the head bomb…cant memories what we study and so on.so shit once..

really headache recently when thinking on lots of things haven’t done and the assignments also still waiting for me to be done…But the final exam also around the corner…one more week is exam liao…Then in my hand, lots of things have to consider about…Every night can’t sleep well, because when close my eyes, lots of things will appear in my brain.
In this holiday, where should i go?going to work? or stay at home? or go to travel? But when thinking on lots of money have to spend, feel so headache.
I really don’t like the UMS Labuan, but when thinking on if after i graduated, then i can start to earn money and give mom a good life then i have to continue my life, for not waste the time, and can faster graduated.
Have to think about the study, have to think about my personal ,have to think about my family’s problem really make me headache…

still remember the happy time when i with u.seem like just past it,but it has a deep memories in my mind…
Why you said want to broke with me,just only you want to be…but do you thinking on me?until now also…?Sometime when i thinking on you really make my heart hurt.I don know whether you still thinking on me o not?but i miss you always.
Still remember the time we at the swimming pool and only i and you go.We really have fun there and also the best memory in my mind.Everytime when i can swim,i will memory u.
There are some msg from you tat i really difficult to deleted although i said want to forget you,but i really cant make it.You left me in my very hardness times.But now i still hope can be with you,although you always say cant.
Why you cant give us a start since both of us still have the feeling?
The time tat i cant hear ur sound really make me miss you,but after hear ur sound,my heart will become more hurt and hurt.This time i cahnge the number also have a reason that want to forget you,but i cant control myself to send u a msg said tat i had changed my number.
I know that our relationship is not allowed.But i really love you…

really long time havent post the blog here liao..a little miss here..
plan to write it at the blogspot but many problems happened..
then at the end oso bac to write blog here…
since january really many things happened on me..
the ways of the loving getting failed failed n failed ,oso getting hurt n hurt..now really wan to rest…single is good o have a partner is ok?really don know..don have partner feel so lonely but the time don have partner will feel so lonely..almost wan to finish the sem 2 study liao.A month n more later will b bac to semenanjung liao..a little happy but the 2 months time don know wat to do..works?don hope so..cos the time working is very sien n tired..oso have to face lots of ppl n scording…then wat can i do??